I have felt so down, could hardly lift myself out of this glum feeling, but today I went to Church and I truly feel renewed, nothing in particular happened except I felt the love of people..... and I knew that I was in the right place at the right time.....it's an awful feeling not feeling safe in ones own home....it will take me sometime to get over that.....but having this yucky down feeling that I could hardly get on top off, was terrible........ The people that do such terrible things to others don't realize that they alter the very core of your being, you feel like you will never be the same again....but I must have faith.....I have felt everyone's love and kindness.....but it's been very hard to listen to everyone else's experience.....and it seems that everyone has a friend, relative or themselves that have had this done to them......it leaves one feeling even more scared.......it's been a good lesson to me though because as soon as anyone tells me something, I immedaitely think of my possible experience with the same or similar thing and talk about my experience to them....never really thinking the affect that, that might have on them.
So hopefully my insides can now stop shacking and my continual headache may stop. And my faith can return in abundance...which I feel it will.
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